Tuesday, October 2, 2012

who am i? why am i here?




i am a little confused.  i don't know where i've been. as a matter of fact i don't know where i am now.  i'm feeling ok.  for a while there, i was having a storm in my brain--electric shock therapy or seizures or strokes.  that was horribly unpleasant. now it's been a few days and it hasn't happened...

these days, the only place i go is to Dr. Allison Wonderland and Dr. Yester. They act like they like me, but then they do some very aggressive and outlandish things to me, so i am not sure.  i'm not sure of anything much.  

i have no idea--who i am or where i live
do i have a home?  a pack?  where is the food?
i am not allowed to play, so i rest a lot. twice or more a day the other pack members say something like "BEE-ti,  BEE-ti, BEE-ti" and then hand me food with little white pebbles in them. 

i can sometimes peel away the food and eat the good part--leaving the small white rocks on the floor.  but on the frequent occasion that i'm just too hungry, i eat the food quickly--nasty tasting pebbles and all, and next thing i know it's Night nIGHT.    


seems like a nice enough place.  it's certainly hot here
there are geckos. i like geckos.
that's the only thing i know for sure.
i hear them rattling around in those leaves. 
finally, i have a purpose.

yes. this is where they live.i only care about them.
i have been placed in some sort of contraption
and there is a force constantly pulling me back from what i love.


outside the laundromat
i hear geckos
i can almost taste them



the force drags me to the dock.
no geckos.
on second thought, these are not geckos but
they are fiddler crabs and they will do, but wait...



the force drags me away from my hunt


and into this white den.

the pack members are very hard to understand. sometimes when i relieve myself they are delighted. other times they are distraught.  very unpredictable pack members.  i assume i am dominant, but i'm not sure. the larger one may be.  or that other one.  

i'll just have to give them time. perhaps things will improve.  just please whoever is in charge--don't let those shocking episodes return.